All Things Are New
Did you know?
That God is good to you? That means he’s always drawing you to him, to know the best fulfilling joy?
That He is ever faithful? That means he’s never going to leave you. Not ever.
The last couple of weeks have brought my life to a full stop. To a reeling halt.
There has been a whole lot of ache. And a whole lot of uncertain and frustrated. And a whole lot of “why?”.
My idyllic rosy, happy Christmas and hopeful, kissy New Years was just – not that at all. For privacy’s sake, I can’t elaborate much, but I cannot seem to post anything else here without first admitting that there has been some real sadness going on.
Both family relational sadness and physical pain. I’ve been recovering from a kidney infection that dominated my entire holiday season and landed me in the hospital. For a girl who has never faced more than a splinter (ok, maybe a bike fall or two) this was dramatic enough. But then I had to stay two nights.
Enter: Super dramatic girl (with lots of tears… and serious post-IV bloaty swelling).
My body was a mess. And me?
I’ve been super scared. And really untrusting. I wanna look normal and feel normal and act normal! Now! I want to erase my crazy, crappy Christmas that turned out NOTHING like I had planned. I want to re-do New Years Eve and party with my husband and not have to go to bed at 8PM because my meds knocked me out.
Now, thanks to the antibiotics, I’m healing up just fine. Slow, but steady. My energy level is on the mend, but my legs are screaming at me like I’ve just done six thousand squats just because I walked around all day, doing normal person work things.
Am I ever going to heal? Like, really heal?
But that’s where the full stop became one hopeful, forward stride after the next.
Because God has been good to me. And He has proven himself faithful to my family, no matter the bump in the road.
He’s the Healer of relationships and kidneys.
And my heart.
He has made me glad. In the bitter and the sweet!
“For You, O LORD, have made me glad by what You have done, I will sing for joy at the works of Your hands.”
— Psalm 92:4