All Things Are New
Did you know?
That God is good to you? That means he’s always drawing you to him, to know the best fulfilling joy?
That He is ever faithful? That means he’s never going to leave you. Not ever.
The last couple of weeks have brought my life to a full stop. To a reeling halt.
There has been a whole lot of ache. And a whole lot of uncertain and frustrated. And a whole lot of “why?”.
My idyllic rosy, happy Christmas and hopeful, kissy New Years was just – not that at all. For privacy’s sake, I can’t elaborate much, but I cannot seem to post anything else here without first admitting that there has been some real sadness going on.
Both family relational sadness and physical pain. I’ve been recovering from a kidney infection that dominated my entire holiday season and landed me in the hospital. For a girl who has never faced more than a splinter (ok, maybe a bike fall or two) this was dramatic enough. But then I had to stay two nights.
Enter: Super dramatic girl (with lots of tears… and serious post-IV bloaty swelling).
My body was a mess. And me?
I’ve been super scared. And really untrusting. I wanna look normal and feel normal and act normal! Now! I want to erase my crazy, crappy Christmas that turned out NOTHING like I had planned. I want to re-do New Years Eve and party with my husband and not have to go to bed at 8PM because my meds knocked me out.
Now, thanks to the antibiotics, I’m healing up just fine. Slow, but steady. My energy level is on the mend, but my legs are screaming at me like I’ve just done six thousand squats just because I walked around all day, doing normal person work things.
Whine. Cry.
Am I ever going to heal? Like, really heal?
But that’s where the full stop became one hopeful, forward stride after the next.
Because God has been good to me. And He has proven himself faithful to my family, no matter the bump in the road.
He’s the Healer of relationships and kidneys.
And hearts!
And my heart.
He has made me glad. In the bitter and the sweet!
Happy 2013.
“For You, O LORD, have made me glad by what You have done, I will sing for joy at the works of Your hands.”
— Psalm 92:4
Abby, I’m sorry that your Christmas was crappy. I’m so glad that you are on the mend! You’re right , God is good! Sometimes we lose sight of that for a moment, but when we re-realize it we know it better than before we lost sight of it.
Thanks for the lovin’ — things are looking so much better over here. I’m back to my normal self, and so thankful!
You’re a trooper!! Sometimes the bad things make the good things seem that much sweeter. :) Glad you’re feeling better. And for what it’s worth, I would’ve believed you if you told me you lost weight while you were at the hospital! Lol. :) Happy monday!!!!
Haha, well I’m just tickled by that so thanks!:)
Abby, I loved reading this. (: So encouraging to read, to be reminded of, and to see a glimpse of the way our wonderful Creator is working in our brothers and sisters lives! You are so right, God is good to us! I cannot comprehend His unfailing love, His continual drawing us near, and His healing in all sorts of ways…
I’m sorry you had such a rough Christmas :( I can’t remember your wedding date, but was this the first Christmas married, or second? Either way, there are plenty more in you and Jordan’s future, Lord willing. (:
Though our lives have twisted and turned and no where with us closer together like we used to be… thank the Lord for little blessings like blogs where you can see His work in old friends lives!
Much love and many hugs to to you, sweet married lady.
I has been a whole year, so it was our second Christmas! Pretty crazy. And yes, He is so good. Sometimes it just hits you so hard and you have to say it out loud!